I will admit

I will admit I am a blog stalker. Most people are very social through blogs, I for one just like to see how relationships work out in the blogs. Sometimes, and very often I find people are 'different' depending on how and who they are being social with. Social Blogging could be called Slogging...yeah Slogging. So the term blog stalker could be Balker.

I will admit that I take things to the extreme and really have my own fantasy about how things should work out. I also imagine what I want someone to say to me and how, but we all know it never works out how it does in my head. Sometimes things don't always turn out how I would hoped based on a conversation with a friend or a situation that I witnessed. Sometimes that makes me sad inside.

I will admit that I am a Christian. Yes, I love Jesus. I pray for my friends. I don't pass judgements on any other people. We all make mistakes, we all deserve love, and we are all imperfect. The phrase "what would Jesus do" is overused but really, what would he do? I bet you anything he would sit next to the homeless man you saw on your way to work before he would go to Starbucks and browse on his laptop. He would drive the beat up rusty car that's paid for before he would borrow from someone else for his own gain. I know he would listen to every word I said so carefully and diligently and at the end he would love me even more.

I will admit that I care too much for people that I probably shouldn't care about. I get hurt easily. I am sensitive. I like to hear that I am wanted and needed. I like knowing that without me, someone would hurt inside. I like to think that when they hear a song and it reminds me of them, the treasure that song forever.

I just want to know that in this world and all the stuff thats in it, that in the end it was all worth it.

Very Randomish

Wouldn't you like to know what I hide behind this screen? Oh I have a few very nice secrets I could tell. I won't though because then they wouldn't stay um secret! I figured that all out on my own.

In a previous post I mentioned the ill feeling I have toward Miley Cirus. It hasn't ended, I just wanted to update you. Bill O'Reilly even had some dude on his show analyzing the poptart and they said she is like Elvis! Yeah...I totally see the resemblence. Elvis and Miley....totally has to be the sideburns? Yeah...

Hey I just gave away a secret in the previous paragraph....did you catch it? I LOVE BILL O'REILLY and I am pretty sure he loves me even though he's old. Don't ask me why I love his show so much, but I love it and I am pretty sure that it makes me odd. I like milk and onions as a nice snack..my favorite color is purple...I would pretty much die without music...diet coke should be a food group...and Napoleon Dynamite rocks my world.

A few songs that are in my head tonight that are kicking my @$$:

1. Calling You by Blue October
This song has some sweet sweet music with some kick ass lyrics. Seriously, if a dude sang this song to me oh he would so be the best dude ever. This song melts my insides. Its like melty butter in my soul. Yeah. But seriously, it does kick some butt. "I only want to see if you're ok when I'm not around" If you have ever loved anyone in your life I am sure you can relate to this song.

2. Somewhere Out There by Our Lady Peace
Why do all the good songs never get that much radio play? This song really was awesome when it came out and now that I have it on my iPod its even better because I can hear him sing all the time. I just like it because one of the lines "I miss your purple hair" Yeah I did it. I had purple hair. I had all kinds of colors of hair. I like this song because it also just reminds me of a love that is out there...no worries because I know you're out there somewhere out there...

3. Karma by Alicia Keys
Yeah this song just rocks my world right now....I like to call them 'angry violins' any type of song with a violin in it I just love...doesn't even have to be a good song if it has any type of violin it kicks my ass. It just does. 'Nuff said.

4. Oh by Ciara feat. Ludacris
I will admit the only reason this song made the list is because of the beat...the time it reminds me of is summer when its warm and she says "they got their southern cookin'" Yeah southern cookin' and fat girls love food! Just better have some diet coke on the side. This song is fun to be in the car alone on a trip to Ohio in July in a rental car and you can blare it and sing like you are the hottest shit ever. Yeah, I did that. I miss that trip. Driving 3.5 hours alone with no one! NO ONE! No kids! Ahhh all I can say is "Oh!"

5. I Love You More by Sarah Silverman
Talk about a true love song! It is the ultimate love song and you should listen to it, bitch. Cha Cha Cha!