Well tomorrow is Friday although I am missing a few hours at work due to my heart related issues. I am so sick of being sick yet I have a long way to go.
May 10th is coming up so that I can get my bloodwork done then. I can't wait! I just can't even wait! I want to know what my levels are and get on a new farking dose ASAP!
Not much in my life is going on other than the day to day struggles of my body being a prickhead. I am fat too, did you know it would take care of SO MUCH if I lost weight. I wish I had a MD degree then I could tell people they are fat. I mean gee today I didn't even know I had some extra baggage on me. Why did they have to tell me? I mean I thought I was Olsen twin skinny and they had to go and burst my bubble.
DUDES I have HYPOTHYROIDISM. Had it been diagnosed I dont know say WHEN I STARTED putting on the pounds I might not be obese. And he asked me when my last pap smear was! AS IF hes even going there. Right. Good luck on that one sicko.
This turned into a RANT and VENT post but I feel better. Now I am going to bed for sure.
Thursday, May 1, 2008
Monday, April 7, 2008
Hypo Mom
So just a few days ago I was told I have Hypothyroidism. Which might explain my anxiety, depression, weight issues and over all NO energy whatsover. I am not crazy after all! Its my thyroid! I have learned a few things since reading up on this condition. Always ALWAYS ask to know what your levels are if your dr says you are fine, ask to know what your TSH numbers were and find in a book what normal levels are! I see my dr on Saturday and will learn what the normal numbers are. I am reading in the book but its not registering in my head which is another sign of being Hypo. I think after Sat the dr might up my meds some. I am really really tired still and the thought of even taking a shower wears me out!
I will probably post more on my journey as I am sure I will be on meds now the rest of my life. I am very thankful that I am not crazy. I thought I was going crazy. I am glad to know there is a reason why I feel down/irritable and cranky and makes it easier to get through the day.
On a fun note, I am making spaghetti and garlic bread for lunch and I honestly can't wait to eat!
I will probably post more on my journey as I am sure I will be on meds now the rest of my life. I am very thankful that I am not crazy. I thought I was going crazy. I am glad to know there is a reason why I feel down/irritable and cranky and makes it easier to get through the day.
On a fun note, I am making spaghetti and garlic bread for lunch and I honestly can't wait to eat!
Friday, March 28, 2008
I will admit
I will admit I am a blog stalker. Most people are very social through blogs, I for one just like to see how relationships work out in the blogs. Sometimes, and very often I find people are 'different' depending on how and who they are being social with. Social Blogging could be called Slogging...yeah Slogging. So the term blog stalker could be Balker.
I will admit that I take things to the extreme and really have my own fantasy about how things should work out. I also imagine what I want someone to say to me and how, but we all know it never works out how it does in my head. Sometimes things don't always turn out how I would hoped based on a conversation with a friend or a situation that I witnessed. Sometimes that makes me sad inside.
I will admit that I am a Christian. Yes, I love Jesus. I pray for my friends. I don't pass judgements on any other people. We all make mistakes, we all deserve love, and we are all imperfect. The phrase "what would Jesus do" is overused but really, what would he do? I bet you anything he would sit next to the homeless man you saw on your way to work before he would go to Starbucks and browse on his laptop. He would drive the beat up rusty car that's paid for before he would borrow from someone else for his own gain. I know he would listen to every word I said so carefully and diligently and at the end he would love me even more.
I will admit that I care too much for people that I probably shouldn't care about. I get hurt easily. I am sensitive. I like to hear that I am wanted and needed. I like knowing that without me, someone would hurt inside. I like to think that when they hear a song and it reminds me of them, the treasure that song forever.
I just want to know that in this world and all the stuff thats in it, that in the end it was all worth it.
I will admit that I take things to the extreme and really have my own fantasy about how things should work out. I also imagine what I want someone to say to me and how, but we all know it never works out how it does in my head. Sometimes things don't always turn out how I would hoped based on a conversation with a friend or a situation that I witnessed. Sometimes that makes me sad inside.
I will admit that I am a Christian. Yes, I love Jesus. I pray for my friends. I don't pass judgements on any other people. We all make mistakes, we all deserve love, and we are all imperfect. The phrase "what would Jesus do" is overused but really, what would he do? I bet you anything he would sit next to the homeless man you saw on your way to work before he would go to Starbucks and browse on his laptop. He would drive the beat up rusty car that's paid for before he would borrow from someone else for his own gain. I know he would listen to every word I said so carefully and diligently and at the end he would love me even more.
I will admit that I care too much for people that I probably shouldn't care about. I get hurt easily. I am sensitive. I like to hear that I am wanted and needed. I like knowing that without me, someone would hurt inside. I like to think that when they hear a song and it reminds me of them, the treasure that song forever.
I just want to know that in this world and all the stuff thats in it, that in the end it was all worth it.
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
Very Randomish
Wouldn't you like to know what I hide behind this screen? Oh I have a few very nice secrets I could tell. I won't though because then they wouldn't stay um secret! I figured that all out on my own.
In a previous post I mentioned the ill feeling I have toward Miley Cirus. It hasn't ended, I just wanted to update you. Bill O'Reilly even had some dude on his show analyzing the poptart and they said she is like Elvis! Yeah...I totally see the resemblence. Elvis and Miley....totally has to be the sideburns? Yeah...
Hey I just gave away a secret in the previous paragraph....did you catch it? I LOVE BILL O'REILLY and I am pretty sure he loves me even though he's old. Don't ask me why I love his show so much, but I love it and I am pretty sure that it makes me odd. I like milk and onions as a nice snack..my favorite color is purple...I would pretty much die without music...diet coke should be a food group...and Napoleon Dynamite rocks my world.
A few songs that are in my head tonight that are kicking my @$$:
1. Calling You by Blue October
This song has some sweet sweet music with some kick ass lyrics. Seriously, if a dude sang this song to me oh he would so be the best dude ever. This song melts my insides. Its like melty butter in my soul. Yeah. But seriously, it does kick some butt. "I only want to see if you're ok when I'm not around" If you have ever loved anyone in your life I am sure you can relate to this song.
2. Somewhere Out There by Our Lady Peace
Why do all the good songs never get that much radio play? This song really was awesome when it came out and now that I have it on my iPod its even better because I can hear him sing all the time. I just like it because one of the lines "I miss your purple hair" Yeah I did it. I had purple hair. I had all kinds of colors of hair. I like this song because it also just reminds me of a love that is out there...no worries because I know you're out there somewhere out there...
3. Karma by Alicia Keys
Yeah this song just rocks my world right now....I like to call them 'angry violins' any type of song with a violin in it I just love...doesn't even have to be a good song if it has any type of violin it kicks my ass. It just does. 'Nuff said.
4. Oh by Ciara feat. Ludacris
I will admit the only reason this song made the list is because of the beat...the time it reminds me of is summer when its warm and she says "they got their southern cookin'" Yeah southern cookin' and fat girls love food! Just better have some diet coke on the side. This song is fun to be in the car alone on a trip to Ohio in July in a rental car and you can blare it and sing like you are the hottest shit ever. Yeah, I did that. I miss that trip. Driving 3.5 hours alone with no one! NO ONE! No kids! Ahhh all I can say is "Oh!"
5. I Love You More by Sarah Silverman
Talk about a true love song! It is the ultimate love song and you should listen to it, bitch. Cha Cha Cha!
In a previous post I mentioned the ill feeling I have toward Miley Cirus. It hasn't ended, I just wanted to update you. Bill O'Reilly even had some dude on his show analyzing the poptart and they said she is like Elvis! Yeah...I totally see the resemblence. Elvis and Miley....totally has to be the sideburns? Yeah...
Hey I just gave away a secret in the previous paragraph....did you catch it? I LOVE BILL O'REILLY and I am pretty sure he loves me even though he's old. Don't ask me why I love his show so much, but I love it and I am pretty sure that it makes me odd. I like milk and onions as a nice snack..my favorite color is purple...I would pretty much die without music...diet coke should be a food group...and Napoleon Dynamite rocks my world.
A few songs that are in my head tonight that are kicking my @$$:
1. Calling You by Blue October
This song has some sweet sweet music with some kick ass lyrics. Seriously, if a dude sang this song to me oh he would so be the best dude ever. This song melts my insides. Its like melty butter in my soul. Yeah. But seriously, it does kick some butt. "I only want to see if you're ok when I'm not around" If you have ever loved anyone in your life I am sure you can relate to this song.
2. Somewhere Out There by Our Lady Peace
Why do all the good songs never get that much radio play? This song really was awesome when it came out and now that I have it on my iPod its even better because I can hear him sing all the time. I just like it because one of the lines "I miss your purple hair" Yeah I did it. I had purple hair. I had all kinds of colors of hair. I like this song because it also just reminds me of a love that is out there...no worries because I know you're out there somewhere out there...
3. Karma by Alicia Keys
Yeah this song just rocks my world right now....I like to call them 'angry violins' any type of song with a violin in it I just love...doesn't even have to be a good song if it has any type of violin it kicks my ass. It just does. 'Nuff said.
4. Oh by Ciara feat. Ludacris
I will admit the only reason this song made the list is because of the beat...the time it reminds me of is summer when its warm and she says "they got their southern cookin'" Yeah southern cookin' and fat girls love food! Just better have some diet coke on the side. This song is fun to be in the car alone on a trip to Ohio in July in a rental car and you can blare it and sing like you are the hottest shit ever. Yeah, I did that. I miss that trip. Driving 3.5 hours alone with no one! NO ONE! No kids! Ahhh all I can say is "Oh!"
5. I Love You More by Sarah Silverman
Talk about a true love song! It is the ultimate love song and you should listen to it, bitch. Cha Cha Cha!
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Dr. Everyone
Ever notice when you are sick...I mean really sick as I am that everyone has their take on your symptoms? I welcome all the advice but I am so tired of wondering what I have will make me die tonight. I have a DR APPT for 1:30 tomorrow and I can't wait to get there. If they say sorry this is just a virus I might throw a tantrum in their office. Something has to take care of this pain....here are my symptoms:
low grade fever at times
cough not producing anything even though i feel it rattling
cold chills
sweats esp at night
no appitite even though I am eating bad things
I dont even want to drink water which is odd....
today I have severe back pain only when I cough
yeah so thats me...symptoms started like Friday and have only got worse. Tylenol and the expectorant/suppressent meds arent even working. I need a dr....Dr Dr give me the news....I gotta bad case of....the sickies :(
HELP MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
low grade fever at times
cough not producing anything even though i feel it rattling
cold chills
sweats esp at night
no appitite even though I am eating bad things
I dont even want to drink water which is odd....
today I have severe back pain only when I cough
yeah so thats me...symptoms started like Friday and have only got worse. Tylenol and the expectorant/suppressent meds arent even working. I need a dr....Dr Dr give me the news....I gotta bad case of....the sickies :(
HELP MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
Saturday, February 16, 2008
Java Monster Reviews
Since I recommend them to anyone and everyone I should write my reviews for the Java Monsters I have tried. It's actually all of them off the new line. I must say when you have a JM at 9am then pick 11:30 am to have another one...well it makes for a very peppy and exciting Laura. Even the kids at the children's home were laughing at me dancing to the songs on the radio. I love Java Monster and you should to. I think they secretly add crack to them. On to the reviews.
Chai Hai- Not a coffee blend but the actual tea. I prefer my Chai tea warm. This is ok though. Has a bit of a cinnamon backround. It is smooth, but if you don't like teas, this probably isn't the Monster Energy Drink for you.
Irish Blend- Uh can you say Yummy? Makes me feel as if I am drinking an actual adult beverage! Kinda a hint of Bailey's Irish Cream.
Russian-This is also yummy but I felt as if it was even more alcohol tasting. I even thought I could smell the alcohol which I guess isn't a bad thing. The alcohol would be Kahlua....White Russian? Is that like a drink? Anyways yeah....
Lo-Ball- I like to drink this when I have already had a Java monster for the day. It's half the calories as a regular Java Monster so it makes me feel less guilty. Its a sweet coffee blend nothing cool about the flavor.
Nut Up- Ok I was reluctant to try this one but guess what? It's my total favorite. Nut Up gets Two Thumbs Up from me...and I love love love this one. I would say its my favorite. Out of them all. A second choice would be Mean Bean which was in the original line.
The only one I haven't tried is the Big Black (original line) and I am just scared to. I don't want to put over $2 on something I won't like, but for the sake of having all of them I should just suck it up and try it. Maybe I will put my kids in the car and head to the only place I know carries all these flavors. They know me as the Java Monster girl by my eye twitches.
TOP THREE JAVA MONSTERS
1. Nut Up
2. Mean Bean
3. Lo-Ball
For shits and giggles the rest in order:
4. Loca Mocha
5. Irish Blend
6. Chai Hai
7. Russian
8.Big Black (only cause I havent tried it yet)
All in all I wouldn't kick anyone out of bed because I do like them all, but if I had to say I guess I am a bit 'nutty' since the two top flavors are nuts. Funny because I am from Ohio..and I love the Buckeyes.... I LOVE NUTS!!!
Chai Hai- Not a coffee blend but the actual tea. I prefer my Chai tea warm. This is ok though. Has a bit of a cinnamon backround. It is smooth, but if you don't like teas, this probably isn't the Monster Energy Drink for you.
Irish Blend- Uh can you say Yummy? Makes me feel as if I am drinking an actual adult beverage! Kinda a hint of Bailey's Irish Cream.
Russian-This is also yummy but I felt as if it was even more alcohol tasting. I even thought I could smell the alcohol which I guess isn't a bad thing. The alcohol would be Kahlua....White Russian? Is that like a drink? Anyways yeah....
Lo-Ball- I like to drink this when I have already had a Java monster for the day. It's half the calories as a regular Java Monster so it makes me feel less guilty. Its a sweet coffee blend nothing cool about the flavor.
Nut Up- Ok I was reluctant to try this one but guess what? It's my total favorite. Nut Up gets Two Thumbs Up from me...and I love love love this one. I would say its my favorite. Out of them all. A second choice would be Mean Bean which was in the original line.
The only one I haven't tried is the Big Black (original line) and I am just scared to. I don't want to put over $2 on something I won't like, but for the sake of having all of them I should just suck it up and try it. Maybe I will put my kids in the car and head to the only place I know carries all these flavors. They know me as the Java Monster girl by my eye twitches.
TOP THREE JAVA MONSTERS
1. Nut Up
2. Mean Bean
3. Lo-Ball
For shits and giggles the rest in order:
4. Loca Mocha
5. Irish Blend
6. Chai Hai
7. Russian
8.Big Black (only cause I havent tried it yet)
All in all I wouldn't kick anyone out of bed because I do like them all, but if I had to say I guess I am a bit 'nutty' since the two top flavors are nuts. Funny because I am from Ohio..and I love the Buckeyes.... I LOVE NUTS!!!
Friday, February 15, 2008
Oh Sweet Motivation
So after last nights fun post, I thought wow I need a motivator. I have a goal and I need to stick with it. This means that I will be snacking on a lot of my salsa and carrots again. Not that I mind it, it gives me veggies that I need to be eating, but I just want another SIGG bottle. Since they are so expensive I thought I would say to myself "hey fat ass you have to earn it" so here I am earning another SIGG bottle.
Why have two expensive water bottles, you may be asking. Well, for starters I do love the way the water tastes out of it. I like how its stylish, and I like feeling good about myself. I don't think its so wrong to save the planet a few less plastic water bottles either. I don't really have to justify it to you though because I don't really care why you question me.
I took the kiddos to the library tonight and then we went to Kroger because I had to get milk and bread. I can't believe the price of things these days. It does make me want to cry over spilled milk.
Working out tonight...I only did the gazelle and I hardly broke a sweat doing the 140 BPM Podrunner thingy ma-bob. I do have a work out CD that I did the other night that made me sweat a lot. I think I need to try 150-plus beats per minute to get a sweat going. Dudes, I am going to get another SIGG bottle. $1 a pound is what I am paying myself. I am proud tosay that in the week I have had my Ipod I have worked out 3 times! It has proven itself very useful. I love thee Ipod.....I always will.
Why have two expensive water bottles, you may be asking. Well, for starters I do love the way the water tastes out of it. I like how its stylish, and I like feeling good about myself. I don't think its so wrong to save the planet a few less plastic water bottles either. I don't really have to justify it to you though because I don't really care why you question me.
I took the kiddos to the library tonight and then we went to Kroger because I had to get milk and bread. I can't believe the price of things these days. It does make me want to cry over spilled milk.
Working out tonight...I only did the gazelle and I hardly broke a sweat doing the 140 BPM Podrunner thingy ma-bob. I do have a work out CD that I did the other night that made me sweat a lot. I think I need to try 150-plus beats per minute to get a sweat going. Dudes, I am going to get another SIGG bottle. $1 a pound is what I am paying myself. I am proud tosay that in the week I have had my Ipod I have worked out 3 times! It has proven itself very useful. I love thee Ipod.....I always will.
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