Joe Dirt plays Dirty!

If any of you have been a sufferer er er...of anxiety you will know how much it sucks! It really SUCKS! I have been dealing with high anxiety level for about a month. It isn't much that I share with many people and I feel sometimes the ones closest don't even understand. I don't really have a reason to be anxious. I have the heat paid, electric paid, phone...etc but I think its past situations and the 'what if's' that make me super anxious.

I know its at its peak when I can't even seem to sit on my couch for more than 5 minutes and just chill out. It is also bad when I can't go to sleep because I wonder if the alarm is on. Then I wonder if it's loud enough. Then I wonder if it doesn't go off then I might get fired...if I get fired I can't pay certain bills. Then someone will take my kids away because I am not taking care of them.

See the cycle? So last night was one of those nights that wouldn't let me go to sleep. And here I sit tonight trying to fight even relaxing my body to REST. I can't get it to stop. I believe this is where I need to go see a medical professional and see what they say.

I have had some stress at work too, sharing my office with someone who can't seem to get my hours straight and she's all up in my space. Then the executive director is like down my neck to get my drivers license renewed. It expires on the 22nd...shes like on top of me like a starving person running for food being throw from helicopters in umm..one of those countries we send food to. I know it was so wrong of me to say it but it's how I feel 24/7 lately. Like a person running for food and trying to beat Joe Dirt next to me. Let me tell you, Joe Dirt is some feirce competition.